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i wonder

well im so nervous and unprepared
for the broken days that lie ahead
my weakness never leads to sleep
theres nothing left for me to dream

so i close my eyes and i sink back
down into familiar grounds
she loves me   theres love in her eyes
and i take it   the love that is mine

im not gonna say what youve been trained to praise
dont callous my mind with your advertising ways
you talk so big about the things you use
then you come down so hard on things youve abused
give your emotions to me
you who you really are

ive got a good imagination
i know whats on your mind
and it feels so good to be pulled by you
this is reason for staying alive
what in the world is this world   i wonder

well julie is a baby and then shes seventeen
i try and draw her passion before she falls to dream
and i do   and she does   she calls   and i come
she  loves  me    theres love in her eyes
and i take it    the love that is mine
theres a storm ahead a lullaby gone by

well theres an old man fishing on the pier
i hear different sounds in different ears
snows falling everywhere the same
its mother nature saying its gonna be ok
what in the world is this world    i wonder

im not gonna say what youve been trained to praise
dont callous my mind with your advertising ways
you talk so big about the things you use
then you come down so hard on things youve abused
give your emotions to me    you who you really are

and its not so easy just being free
‘cause no ones accepting who weve turned out to be
she loves me   theres love in her eyes   and i take it
the love that is mine



unknown and disliked

ive never been so unknown and disliked
riding the fence between my broken lines
trying to find what i already have
seems everyones off on their own
god wont you leave me alone

janeys so busy with her new misery
trying to be whats so fine
she always is changing to be what shes not
now janeys off on her own
and god wont you leave me alone

well you can leave me be til you can help me see
what we should be doing
and until you can dont expect me to plan
for the future which you are pursuing

i cant make decisions about colors and taste
theres too many leavers with nothing to brace
im leaking red under mine
seems everyones off on their own
i wanna be alone

janeys too fast to run by my side
she already knows what she wants to decide
when she gets it she has it and needs something new
but she never looks down from above
seems everyones off on their own
why cant we be alone

its all the same to me
aint nothing gonna change
so ill just stay inside inside
i only came along for the ride

well you can leave me be til you can help me see
what we should be doing
and until you can dont expect me to plan
for the future which you are pursuing



empty arms

i think of you late at night
wondering why were apart
the darkness fades to light
im sleepin in my own empty arms

well ive been dreamin ‘bout the way things were
and of what i could of done
but watching out of my way
has been enough for me

we dont have to stay here
this aint the only way
living doesnt have to mean
dying afraid

and maybe they have more to show
to prove they aint been wasting their time
but i have you
and weve been doing alright

im not being negative
im just trying not to lie
but the only time i feel at ease
is when i look up through your eyes

i think of you late at night
wondering why were apart
the darkness fades to light
im sleeping in my own empty arms



out of the blue

please dont make me apologize
for the pain that i can realize
in those wholl never sympathize with me

for even though i criticize
all people who cant fantasize
youve never heard me say their sweats in vain

i know i sometimes terrorize
the frightened ones who memorize
their lines until theyre classified as hate

they tell me i romanticize
i have no right to agonize
‘cause no ones had it easier than me

now im the only one i criticize
theres no excuse for my demise
i hate to think ill always be this way
ive always been this way



been waitin’

well ive been waitin’
waitin’ for a change
yes ive been waitin’
circling round for days
i dont wanna sound afraid
cause you any worry
but i can see behind your moves
cut right through your daily dues
and your begging for my love
begging to be loved
i can read it just behind your eyes

if we could be together
then there would be no doubt
instead its just anticipating
holding backs getting so frustrating
i could do much better if i tried
cared enough to try

but im a bit disappointed
by the way ive unfolded
and by these fads i see you try on
and you may say im a coward
sometimes i think so too
but i prefer to portray myself as
a bud unflowered
a speaking bud unflowered

sometimes i get so angry
i wanna bring it all down
i feel like ice in a frying hot pan
im too small   a sizzle   a sound
im too small to bring the heat down



war

war war war
is on my mind
i gotta decide
which side
im fighting for
war

i got nothing to fight for
i see who i am
reflection of this enemy
the trigger finger on his hand

i am he
he is me
the bells ringing for me
the death toll is for me

will it really be different
when the neighbor boy dies
i dont care for that neighbor boy
anymore than a russian spy

i am he
he is me
the bells ringing for me
the death toll is for me



our ring

well i guess youll be taking our ring
from your finger
and letting some stranger
play with your hair
and i cant decide how much to care
‘cause i still want you

well i know im not the only one
who wants to be with you
im no more me than anyone
but tonight im here with you

maybe you were right all along
and maybe i was wrong
maybe you had something to say
and maybe i was gone
maybe im no good for you
and i should let you go
but maybe it dont matter anymore

my words have been defeated
i want to touch you with my hands
like the water touches sand
striving you are
striving i am



bobby sands

well i dont know ‘bout you but im a bit surprised
at how much pain we allow in peoples lives
take this guy bobby sands
who preferred to die than to eat from paid hands

bobby could see beyond his own grass
to the love at the end of an impossible task
so he did the only thing he could to survive
he stopped eating ‘til it blinded his eyes
so he wouldnt have to look anymore
at the battleground streets
and the senseless war

i hope we learn a thing or two
from bobby sands point of view
so we dont have to lose
any more good men
to the lies that closed down
bobby sands eyes

well he couldnt go on fighting in vain
so he sat in his corner and withered away
no food at all only water and salt
still after 60 days he aint falling apart

i dont agree with killing a man
for what he never did understand
but for bobby, who went to parliament
life was like running a race
with his feet in cement

bobbys mother did plead
“no death in his name
hes dying for peace
not more of the same”

maybe i dont enough
to sing this song
but dying for peace
cant be all wrong

the worst part
is that when bobby sands dies
not enough people will sympathize
with his cause
and more bullets will fly
through the clear spring sky
the pretty clear sky

at least bobby will be gone
and taken away
leaving me with nothing
and with nothing to say

well its the 3rd of may 1981
and bobby sands is almost done
and they say
when he finally dies
the people of belfast
will hear familiar cries
of young boys
dying in the streets
from the same army bullets
that their papas did meet

when i hear hes gone
on the 6 o’clock news
ill switch off that damn set
and slip on my shoes
and ill walk on over
to the schoolyard nearby
give a kid a push on a swing
and empty out
my bobby sands sigh

im just a grain of bobby sands
and im sinking down in
to bobby sands eyes

theyre screaming bobbys name in the streets
every time there is a new defeat
sing bobby



this is my country

oh lord its me again
sorry to say ive lost my way
everything ive fought against
im surrendering to
everythings thats glamorous
ive seen through
i cant take it this way

this is my country
and i wish i was proud of it
this is my life what can i get out of it
this is my world
sometimes i want out of it

so proud   so tall   so plain
so straight   so strong
you are to be with me
i am

i dont like hating this country that i live in
i dont like hearing hopeless criticism
america why are you this way
so sure you found the very best way
i dont want to be ashamed
i dont believe it has to be this way

i see you crawling down on your knees
away from who you thought you would be
your words are firm but your eyes cant hide
the sadness that keeps them from mine
your eyes    like flies    you can land on me
‘cause ive been through what youre coming from
i cant believe what life is



back in my room

back in my room again
waiting for the phone
it did ring
it was her
she did say
im going away
i dont know why

so now im here
i had to get away
theres no one near
to tell me im ok
but theyre not too far
gone another day

i dont know
what pushed me outta there
i guess some fear
of losing my identity
theres nothing new here
but somethings not the same

it wont be long
until youre gone
and ill be the one
whos hanging on
pleading for your sympathy

well take me now
before i slip away
or forget about me
gone just another day

i hope i find
a place where i fit in
but i wont mind
if this is all thats meant for me
take my time
ive got a friend to see
take me time
its all the same to me

back in my room again
waiting for the phone
it did ring
it was her
she did say
im going away
i dont know why



youre the reason

you know why
my love did hide
you are why
my loves so fine

i come home
wait for you
is my love a wasted thing
or shared by you?

happiness comes
and goes without you
will we spend more time
or go on our own?

youre the reason why
my loves so fine
is my love a wasted thing
or shared by you?

somehow i know
you know too
time has come to
be with you

youre the reason why
my loves so fine
is my dream a wasted thing
or shared by you?

is my love a wasted thing
or do you share it too?
shared by you
is my love a wasted thing
or shared by you?



here i am

here i am in your city
any city will do
and i just wanna lie here
until my dreams come true

well there are times when i feel ive been left alone
from people trying to make it on their own
they work from a plan with sure goals in mind
they ignore everything that could leave them behind

you say you need more friends    i only needed you
youre everything i hoped for but now you say its through
at least listen to me cry    as i bargain with the sky
for help    on a helpless day
when everything i am gets in my way

ive been holding back
all the love that is me
its been like living locked up in a cell
with a crying baby out of reach
theres a crying baby out of reach

are you still without the strength
to run with me out on the plank
‘cause im so restless i cant sit still
how much more time must we kill

here i am in your city
any city will do
and i just wanna lie here
until my dreams come true

 

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